It's time to dust the cobwebs from my journal!

I was 15 when I first created my DA account. I remember how much I loved the idea of being an artist when I was young.

I had tried for years, trying to find a medium that I enjoyed and could do well. I tried everything from painting to poetry and from Sketching to Story writing.

everything I tried I thought I failed at for years.
I'm now, 22 in less than a weeks time. I've grown up, I've abandoned my dreams, and I've discovered and abandoned a whole host of other dreams in the time since I last wrote a journal on DA.

After looking through my whole gallery and scraps, it has become apparent to me, that I have never failed at anything in my whole life. No, I've never given myself the chance to fail! I've always given up as soon as I hit a snag.

It's my fear of failure that is causing me to fail at life.
It's my fear of failure that has me working in a callcenter, working towards nothing.

I love my old work, yes I struggled with dislexia a lot as a child, but my poetry and pros all had very deep meaning. I feel asthough I've lost the ability to write like that, I've become so numb, and so passive.
I need to get in-touch with my inner child.

It's been great writing this Journal. I think I've proven myself wrong. this journal wasn't written by someone who is numb, only someone who is lost.

If anyone remembers me, please leave me a comment. I'd love a catch up!

-Charlie